was posted by crucificateurnever saw the second picture, Admi
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was posted by crucificateurnever saw the second picture, Admi
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never saw the second picture, Admi
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In Classical - and indeed Celtic and other Indo-European traditions -
sight is not just a passive function like that of a camera,
eyes send out rays that 'catch' what they're looking at, and can affect it for good or evil.
In an extreme situation, especially hanging naked on my Cross,
I'm sure I'd 'feel' the looks of the spectators,
whether hurting me all the more with their hatred and contempt,
easing me with love and sympathy,
maybe arousing ambiguous, conflicting feelings in me with their lust...
I was just looking at my own avatar and wondering to myself what I might be doing, feeling, saying, etc once my cross was raised after I had been nailed to it. So I just decided to jot them down kind of randomly in a post.
Initially there would be screams of agony and the instant realization that I would be dying on this cross. I would want so badly to be free of my pain and anguish that my struggling would begin immediately. Squirming, writhing, hoping to somehow free myself from my cross even though the nails make it impossible.
I would be engaged in the ultimate struggle, the struggle for my life.
The cycle would be vicious. The struggle causing more agony but I would have the inner need to struggle anyway. And the more suffering that would occur, the more it would cause me to struggle.
Then, between my sobbing and my moans of agony, would come the pleas for help. I would force myself to look around and pick out people to make eye contact with. Then beg them for help. Hoping I could make them see and understand the suffering I am going through. I want them to look in my eyes to see the pain, anguish and desperation that I am in. I could imagine how I would beg and plead. "Please somebody help me, please I beg you, please please help me".
I would bow my head at times in desperation. Other times I would throw it back in desperation. I would shake my head from side to side letting everyone know this shouldn't be happening to me. But it is. And there is nothing I can do. The helplessness would begin to overwhelm me.
I think at times I would look over at my wrists and see them nailed. See the blood running and dripping from them. But then quickly look away, almost unable to believe that I am really nailed to this cross. That I am being crucified.
Being catholic, that would finally kick in. And people would hear me begin to pray. Not standard prayers at first, but prayers I am making up. Prayers of desperation, begging for help, mercy and comfort. "dear god please comfort me, please, I beg you. Please dear lord have mercy on me, please help me through this agony, please god please". Things like that. Praying through moans and sobs of pain.
I would need to feel loved so badly, that if I saw a friend or relative there I would look down at them and beg them, "please, please tell me you love me, oh god please tell me that please...".
Eventually I would be heard praying standard prayers, still hoping those prayers will bring mercy and comfort. I could imagine trying to struggle more when I was getting weaker, knowing the end was near, struggling again for my life.
I'm not sure what the last thing I would say would be but I imagine it might be something like this. While looking down at anyone there that was a friend or relative that cared about me, I would probably say something like "please remember me and what I went through, I love you and please pray for me...."
love is comforting
I would stay with you Danielle,I would rub your legs and tell you I love you...I am with you ...you will never be alone!!!
I think the third is new to me?
Danielle, your depiction of such terrible physical and emotional suffering is heartrending, and has spawned a thread that challenges us to respond! As a stranger at the foot of your cross I would be transfixed - unable to turn away for to do so would be to abandon you in your last hours. How unfair! Young and innocent and beautiful; tender flesh torn by the cruel whips, wrists and feet nailed to the timber behind you; left to writhe in torment before a mocking crowd as life slowly wanes. My heart would be desperate to take you down, bind your wounds and return you to the tender care of those most dear. But helpless to overpower those who would put you to this horrible death, I would do anything I could to ease your pain and the anguish in those tearful, despairing eyes. I would not leave you. My eyes would be fixed upon yours so in the terrifying loneliness of crucifixion you might see that someone cared for you. I would pray with you for mercy and strength to bear the torment. I would remain at the foot of your cross until the last. I would always remember you and what you went through…and at the end you would know that you were loved, even if by a stranger.
I was just looking at my own avatar and wondering to myself what I might be doing, feeling, saying, etc once my cross was raised after I had been nailed to it. So I just decided to jot them down kind of randomly in a post.
Initially there would be screams of agony and the instant realization that I would be dying on this cross. I would want so badly to be free of my pain and anguish that my struggling would begin immediately. Squirming, writhing, hoping to somehow free myself from my cross even though the nails make it impossible.
I would be engaged in the ultimate struggle, the struggle for my life.
The cycle would be vicious. The struggle causing more agony but I would have the inner need to struggle anyway. And the more suffering that would occur, the more it would cause me to struggle.
Then, between my sobbing and my moans of agony, would come the pleas for help. I would force myself to look around and pick out people to make eye contact with. Then beg them for help. Hoping I could make them see and understand the suffering I am going through. I want them to look in my eyes to see the pain, anguish and desperation that I am in. I could imagine how I would beg and plead. "Please somebody help me, please I beg you, please please help me".
I would bow my head at times in desperation. Other times I would throw it back in desperation. I would shake my head from side to side letting everyone know this shouldn't be happening to me. But it is. And there is nothing I can do. The helplessness would begin to overwhelm me.
I think at times I would look over at my wrists and see them nailed. See the blood running and dripping from them. But then quickly look away, almost unable to believe that I am really nailed to this cross. That I am being crucified.
Being catholic, that would finally kick in. And people would hear me begin to pray. Not standard prayers at first, but prayers I am making up. Prayers of desperation, begging for help, mercy and comfort. "dear god please comfort me, please, I beg you. Please dear lord have mercy on me, please help me through this agony, please god please". Things like that. Praying through moans and sobs of pain.
I would need to feel loved so badly, that if I saw a friend or relative there I would look down at them and beg them, "please, please tell me you love me, oh god please tell me that please...".
Eventually I would be heard praying standard prayers, still hoping those prayers will bring mercy and comfort. I could imagine trying to struggle more when I was getting weaker, knowing the end was near, struggling again for my life.
I'm not sure what the last thing I would say would be but I imagine it might be something like this. While looking down at anyone there that was a friend or relative that cared about me, I would probably say something like "please remember me and what I went through, I love you and please pray for me...."
When I was nailed to my cross the pain was very intence...I will never do it again.This is very intense Danielle. I was myself often wondering what it would be like, to be nailed or tied to the cross.
The perspective of the victim is one of so many different perspectives, when we are talking about a crucifiction.
It could have been possible, that after the flogging and the march with the crossbeam on the back, as a victim I'm not really able to see that much, while I'm marching in the crowd with the soldiers around me.
Even when the procession stops, and the cross is assembled on the ground, I'm having the crowd blocking a lot of my sight.
Then being stripped and forced to the wood, with the executers working around me, I can only see these people from the crucifiction team, or when I look straight up, the sky.
I smell the sweat and blood, while they are taking over my body.
I look to the left and can imagine, that they are placing the nail to my wrist, then scream out and try to bend, when they drive it through my bones, into the wood.
But many hands hold me in place, as they bend my knees and nail my feet to the footrest.
I don't really understand what they are doing, as they place a plug between my upper thighs.
Now they raise the cross and I'm just a little above eye level, it is now, that I can watch the scenery.
Others have been crucified with me, there are so many spectators, that you can hardly pick out the crucified in the cowd.
To my left, a woman has been nailed to her cross, bending forward, her long thin and straight hair hanging down, the breasts slowly dangling.
She turns her eyes towards me, insulting me, because of my decreased sex. I reply on the same emotional and intellectual level, with a comment about her breasts and her big nipples . The pain though is unbearable,
I have to scream while I try to sit on the plug.
A few yards in front of us, amongst the crowd, another man and a woman have been tied to their crosses, with their arms behind the crossbar.
I can see the their heads moving up and down, and sometimes even get a glance at the glistening, maltreated and bloodstained bodies.
and the nails they used for you were small, planished and disinfectedWhen I was nailed to my cross the pain was very intence...I will never do it again.
'planished' is a lovely word, but I don't think we've got it in Englishplanished
gladmaken'planished' is a lovely word, but I don't think we've got it in English
it suggests 'polished', 'burnished', smooth, clean and shiny?