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Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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First don't worry about your looks, worry when you have health problems when to heavy. I once experienced it, becoming 125 kg, because of sitting in office only. I started to swimm regularly and since I tend to be a little exhibitionistic I did it in the nude which motivated me very much. Your pics look great also with some additional pounds, but have you checked your blood sugar level?

Please continue to send pics, you are looking great and don't worry!
 
Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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Looks are not really all that important. In any case, having you being a bit larger is not a problem for most of us here - curves are sexy. I understand that it can affect your confidence a bit but if you can still feel sexy inside then that will come across to others who see you. I love women of all shapes and sizes, and from what a lot of my male friends tell me, they also like curvy women.

As dfg42 says, as long as you're in good health, don't worry about what you look like - I'm sure that everybody in here thinks you're gorgeous and would love to see more of you :)
 
Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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Agree with our friends above..
You realy look great and sexy..
Curves, large forms for me are very exciting...and most important is that you have erotic fantasies and ideas..that is great, since we have such dreams we are young... make more pics like this.
...and about shaving, I saw here you shaved and hairy... to be honest you look great in all pics... and its interesting to be sometimes hairy and sometimes shaved.
:) :bdsm-heart:
 
Agree with our friends above..
You realy look great and sexy..
Curves, large forms for me are very exciting...and most important is that you have erotic fantasies and ideas..that is great, since we have such dreams we are young... make more pics like this.
...and about shaving, I saw here you shaved and hairy... to be honest you look great in all pics... and its interesting to be sometimes hairy and sometimes shaved.
:) :bdsm-heart:
100% agreed on all counts.
 
Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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Obviously do whatever makes you feel comfortable, of course. But we’ve grown to like your self-portraiture and trust me when I add my voice to the notion that you are already exquisitely beautiful. I for one am here for the kink, so it’s what you portray as happening that excites me. I mean what red blooded bdsm lover wouldn’t adore this pic? Who here doesn’t like nipple clamps, I for one especially enjoy wearing them! And then to add a clamp on your clitoris, linking all three with a single thread of chain? Oh how I want to play with that chain, make you squirm and pant…. Or I’ll let you do it to me - cockhead instead of clit, perhaps? Make me squirm and perhaps scream? Tbh cbt doesn’t do much for me (yes, I do mean my tits are far more susceptible to clamping than my cock or balls) but I’m sure if I gave you the clip you’d find somewhere to use it?!

So you’re in your 30s? Imagine how you’ll feel in your 60’s? I sure wish I’d taken more photos of 30 year old me… and 40… etc

I encourage you to keep taking the erotic shots because you enjoy them. Even if only to keep for yourself. But there’s plenty of support here for you to continue as before, and cheer you on, beautiful!
 
Sadly,some of us mere mortals can't access DA. Any chance of repeating it here,please @Yupar ??
Here is the picture. i really thank to @Eulalia for my desperate times there and after the coup.
I m gonna post my deviant story for the pic too now by copying text from my dv .
Cuz this thread is not mine ..i dont wanna mess up :)

https://www.cruxforums.com/xf/threads/the-crucified-mother-by-yupar.6301/post-811614
 
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I am formerly religious. For me the desire to be crucified is curiosity and kink. But on a deeper level there's a sense of disregard or dishonor for religious prudeness. I think that Christianity has done a lot of harm and it's ridiculous for Christians to act as if they are superior to other humans. I don't think I would be so interested in torture and death if it wasn't forced upon me as a central narrative of reality since before I was born. It is child abuse to make children believe in Christ and understand the torture and mortality of crucifixion, and I am still traumatized by it. I've embraced my fetish but I wonder if it will remain after I've processed my trauma. Until then, I'm allowing myself to cope with fantasy.

I really feel the same way about how this fantasy is a result of religious upbringing.

I remember at 7 years old being read the passion story by teachers at school along with animated picture slides. During the part of Jesus' flogging many of the girls leaned in and bit their lip obviously excited by the story. I know that it has this affect on people. For me though it was hard to listen to or watch. I hated every year that we would have to either hear the story read or watch one of the jesus movies. I would always try to leave class to go to the bathroom or any other excuse than to see the flogging scene because I was so bothered by it. Or try to be sick that day.

During my childhood I never got over the existence of this torture and thought about it constantly. I was completely horrified that a person could possibly have to endure so much pain. And so what did I do? I made a secret fetish out of it. I would come of the the shower in my towel and run to my room where I would immediately drop the towel and stretch out naked wishing that I could be whipped and crucified. I would lock my self in the bathroom for an hour and imagine the arrest, flogging, and crucifixion. I was always so embarassed of this and couldnt understand why the fantasy turned me on since the reality of the movies I could not bear.

Showing children torture like this does not have healthy affects especially when the main message is that each of us has sinned and deserved to be at that whipping post, but instead Jesus accept our punishment was crucified in our place.

So like you I am trying to process this as an adult but at the same time come to accept that I enjoy it and probably always will.
 
I really feel the same way about how this fantasy is a result of religious upbringing.

I remember at 7 years old being read the passion story by teachers at school along with animated picture slides. During the part of Jesus' flogging many of the girls leaned in and bit their lip obviously excited by the story. I know that it has this affect on people. For me though it was hard to listen to or watch. I hated every year that we would have to either hear the story read or watch one of the jesus movies. I would always try to leave class to go to the bathroom or any other excuse than to see the flogging scene because I was so bothered by it. Or try to be sick that day.

During my childhood I never got over the existence of this torture and thought about it constantly. I was completely horrified that a person could possibly have to endure so much pain. And so what did I do? I made a secret fetish out of it. I would come of the the shower in my towel and run to my room where I would immediately drop the towel and stretch out naked wishing that I could be whipped and crucified. I would lock my self in the bathroom for an hour and imagine the arrest, flogging, and crucifixion. I was always so embarassed of this and couldnt understand why the fantasy turned me on since the reality of the movies I could not bear.

Showing children torture like this does not have healthy affects especially when the main message is that each of us has sinned and deserved to be at that whipping post, but instead Jesus accept our punishment was crucified in our place.
Not only should children prevent to be introduced in the details, the details were altered to make it acceptable to children and therefor the sense is lost.
 
Not only should children prevent to be introduced in the details, the details were altered to make it acceptable to children and therefor the sense is lost.
Probably, I could figure that out without going against the rules of the forum. The meaning of the crucifixion in Roman eyes, is that the state "fucks" the condemned and rapes him to death. The state is in the christian meaning the same as the devil, or an impersonation of the devil/satan, but naturaly Jesus then was risen from the dead and so has overcome satan/state, in the christian believing. But you can naturaly not tell that , or even show with the sexual conotation in public, and therefore in public you always get it twisted. For me that is the reason, why I long time did not understand crucifixion as religious theme.

Secondly, the clear gay aspect, of a cornu penetrating the asshole of the LORD, also indicates, that the condemnation of homosexuaity, which has a strange origin in the Roman, eg. satanic world, is also something which in a wicked way is hidden by the catholic church and is naturaly also a reason for the often, but probably not that often as procleimed by the public, abuse hapening in there. It is also the reason why then anal sex is often used in satanic rituals, which would make no sense if that would be
a normal sexual activity.
 
I really feel the same way about how this fantasy is a result of religious upbringing.

I remember at 7 years old being read the passion story by teachers at school along with animated picture slides. During the part of Jesus' flogging many of the girls leaned in and bit their lip obviously excited by the story. I know that it has this affect on people. For me though it was hard to listen to or watch. I hated every year that we would have to either hear the story read or watch one of the jesus movies. I would always try to leave class to go to the bathroom or any other excuse than to see the flogging scene because I was so bothered by it. Or try to be sick that day.

During my childhood I never got over the existence of this torture and thought about it constantly. I was completely horrified that a person could possibly have to endure so much pain. And so what did I do? I made a secret fetish out of it. I would come of the the shower in my towel and run to my room where I would immediately drop the towel and stretch out naked wishing that I could be whipped and crucified. I would lock my self in the bathroom for an hour and imagine the arrest, flogging, and crucifixion. I was always so embarassed of this and couldnt understand why the fantasy turned me on since the reality of the movies I could not bear.

Showing children torture like this does not have healthy affects especially when the main message is that each of us has sinned and deserved to be at that whipping post, but instead Jesus accept our punishment was crucified in our place.

So like you I am trying to process this as an adult but at the same time come to accept that I enjoy it and probably always will.
Personally, I did my primary education in a state school where the religious aspect was only present in the religion course, which I didn't take; I took a course in morality and citizenship.
Yet this fantasy of crucifixion, preceded by flagellation and other tortures, has possessed me since my earliest childhood, as it has for many members of this forum; it's obvious.
I used to go to Sunday mass from time to time, and perhaps the decorum and the paintings of the Passion of Christ had an unconscious influence. I loved reading about the martyrs and their tortures.
But I think one of the most powerful triggers was watching films that were called ‘Peplum’ at the time. It was all set in antiquity and the Roman era; and even now, I live with this powerful fantasy that is anchored in me.
I'm not ashamed of it, I live it fully as part of my personality and it doesn't affect my social life, which is as normal as can be. I wish you all the best on this forum, respecting the rules and the opinions, desires and fantasies of other members.

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Thank you all for your supportive comments! The truth is that since I turned 30 I have put on more weight and I’m not as confident about how I look as I did when I started this thread. I do still enjoy kinky things, though. Here’s an image of my tits being pinched with tweezer clamps, and the chain is threaded through the clamp on my clit.

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If you were to be crucified (with ropes) either outdoors or indoors, would you prefer a male or female torturer/executioner?
 
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