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yummygal

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Hello all.
Been coming here for over a year - maybe two.
Was raised Catholic and attended Catholic school for 12 years and am pretty sure this had something to do with both of my fetishes - 1. men or women (mostly women) stripped and whipped and 2. catching a glimpse of a woman's panties when she's wearing a skirt. In grades 1 through 12, the females wore jumpers or skirts as uniforms. I have had this particular fetish as young as 5 or 6 years old. Before I started 1st grade! I do remember looking up my grandmother's skirt once because I was curious... no idea. If there's any psychologists in here, I do welcome any facts. :)
I have no interest in harming others or being harmed by anyone in reality nor in fantasy! I am turned on mostly by literature or acted-out visuals. Pain is real and I don't care for it.
 
ok, right after posting this, it occurred to me that my perception of a skirt is a form of 'forced humiliation'. being male, I do not know understand 'wanting to show my legs off and to look cute' because my legs are hairy and not shape in a way that is attractive - at least not to me. society is very lenient on males who go out looking like slob. society, however, is hard on females who do not make an effort to look attractive when they go out. I recognize the unfairness of this. it is a fact that I see the church as a form of totalitarian state (please, no offense intended to those who have remained devout Catholics. I haven't). In school, the uniform was mandatory. I, being a lover of women and a feminist, saw that it was unfair that women/students were force-ably being stripped bare (their legs) and put on display... and the fact that this gave me gratification... I dunno... it all seemed so wrong. still does.
 
nevertheless welcome back in the community:Dand..............................enjoy,,,,,,,,,,,,,us too:D
 
Very interesting, yummygal. I think exchanging thoughts and memories about how we got fascinated with this Crucifixion business is one of the most enjoyable and helpful things that happens on CruxForums, I'm glad you're raising the topic again.

For this girl, that experience of being 'forcibly stripped bare', having my legs 'put on display' (though not in a Catholic school) was a powerful, ambivalent part of becoming what I am now, a female masochist - it was a 'forced humiliation' that we resented, yet at the same time it was an exciting, yes erotic, 'humiliation', and we girls connived in it (hitching up our skirts to reveal more leg!)
See my 'Girly Games' http://www.cruxforums.com/xf/threads/girly-games.1255/

That piece first appeared in the poll-thread started by Apostate, 'Were you raised a Catholic?'. you've probably seen it already -
http://www.cruxforums.com/xf/threads/poll-were-you-raised-catholic.37/#post-297
Another bit of what I contributed on that thread echoes - from a girl's perspective - your experience of learning about Crucifixion:

'I first got excited about Crucifixion at school. A master thought it a good idea to give us 12 year olds a series of lessons, pretty well blow-by-blow, on the Crucifixion of Christ. He could hardly have guessed (or could he?!) the impact he was having on the dark-haired little kid near the back of the class whose big brown eyes grew wider at each gory detail! After that I did begin to look with more interest at crucifixes and pictures of Crucifixion, imagining how they did it, how it felt, experimenting with my own body in that position in gym etc.'
 
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