6
The knife is only in my boot, but the odds are against me so I stand there terrified. Over away from town I see a line of people approaching. As they get nearer, I can make out that most of them are naked; slaves.
Peering past the guards who seem to have simply formed a shield between me and the road, I can see a couple of guards with whips, and about twenty naked slaves, both men and women, young and old. Metal collars round their necks are linked with slack chains from collar to collar, with the first one in line being led by a guard. Thinner chains drop down from the linking chain to their groins, but I can’t see from this distance why. They have no other restraints on, most of them with a hand on the linking chain.
The line is stopped near the man and girl, and turned to look. There is talking and weeping and wailing. Then at a word the line turns smartly and walks away briskly, all the coffle keeping up so the linking chain stays slack.
The guards shielding me walk away, the ones holding me let go. The officer walks up smiling.
“It” again pointing to the girl “family. Father, mother, brother, sisters. It (to the man) family. Grandfather, grandmother, father, mother, brothers, sister, slaves. Merchant slaves take. Slaves work dig. Slaves its see. Its die. Slaves its see. Birds its eat. Slaves its see. Merchant money gets. Merchant slaves free. Family plates take. Altar plates put. Its spirits rest”
I think I took all that in. His speech was very strange. The way I understood it all the family of the two condemned are enslaved till the merchant has his money, and they have to see them die and get eaten by the carrion birds. Then they can collect the fancy nameplates, and do something religious with them which gives a good closure.
“Slaves you see no” he says, “Slaves suffer. You it go. You it talk. You it enjoy. It beauty. It die”.
So I was free to go back to ‘it’ Do they not have a word for ‘she’ or ‘her’? Or are the condemned automatically an ‘it’? I’ll never understand these people, and I don’t want to.
She’s shit herself, and lying down as she is, it’s just a sticky heap between her thighs touching her cunt, crawling with flies.
I scrape it away, get some more water and a rag and clean her up, fully aware of how intimate an act this is, a complete stranger, me old enough to be her father, touching her there.
I mime eating,
“Sa” and a nod, drinking, the same. I get some bread, the berries, and another water skin. The rock the donkey is tied to has a hollow in the top, so I give her a drink, and take the rest to the girl. She drinks a lot, has a few berries and a tiny piece of the bread, saying
“Yi” and shaking her head to more, so I eat the rest.
I kneel at her head, so she can rest it on my thighs. I talk to her about my life and work, I know she can’t understand but human contact must be important, mustn’t it?
She says a few words herself, but she’s obviously getting delirious. The man’s breathing is very noisy, shallow and irregular, he won’t last long, but her breathing is still good and strong, those magnificent mutilated breasts rising regularly.
“Hrund wa, froop. Hrund wa”
I try miming sleep
“Yi, yi, hrund” That’s not what she wanted.
There’s not much more I can do for her, it’s not cold yet to need covering her, and I have to give up on trying to understand. The officer ambles up “I town go” he says “You it stay”
“What does she say?” I ask.
“Hrund wa, hrund wa”
The officer bursts out laughing, slaps me on the back, and walks away in the direction of town, still laughing. She must want something I can’t give her, like release, or death. If she wanted death, could I do it? I can kill a chicken or rabbit, but a beautiful girl? With my knife? Even if in terrible pain and death will come anyway? Too much for my brain to take. And the officer had said “You it kill no”. I look at her, her eyes are closed, she looks asleep. I shuffle away, gently putting her head on the water skin, and ease my aching legs. I eat a bit more, tie the donkey to a shrub where there’s a bit of grass, and have a walk towards the other criminals.