Peony
Magistrate
The Girl
The beauty of unconsciousness...I’m imagining they’re looking at me laid out on my torture horse.
They think I’m blank...barely breathing...But how can they be so wrong?
I am fully conscious...it’s just my body that, for now, has unplugged from my mind...so no pain for now...but, if I want to I can imagine my pain and it’s just beautiful and just awful and I love being me here right now.
Because I’m outside my(self) body and I can look at me, stare down at my beautiful body, my pretty face...Look at my torn flesh and my bloody back and my cunt oozing crimson stained cum and my lips dripping spittle and drool and I look so lovely.
If I was that gorgeous body I would be so so happy...If I looked at that fucked over, ripped, tortured torso, those broken hands, I would be so full of envy. I would so much want to be that girl, tied and nailed onto that torture horse in that dank cellar. Waiting for the next whipping, the next bout of pain...waiting to be half-way through my penance, waiting for my death.
And knowing...I know...that it’s the certainty of my death, the death I have agreed to, that I have asked for, that makes my helplessness real and that elevates my suffering. And yes, I wish it could go on for ever, but yes, it’s the reality that it is coming to an end, slowly, agonisingly, that makes it real for me...
...And I know that for some of you, reading this, you probably wish now that you were me, just like I wish that I really was Petronilla...and maybe even one of you...you know...who is about to whip me...well, just watch and dream...it could be you..
And now I want it real again and I want my hurt and my pain and my body...
“Aiiiiiiiieeeee!!”
Yes!
Fuuuuccckkk!
My fucking body’s on fire!!
Soaking and burning!!!
And my pretty face...cum and blood and piss and I don’t care..
Aaaaaaaagh!!!! And now my fucking torn hands!
And I’m face down in the mess of water and piss and blood and he’s pulling it from me and my cunt is ripping and...
I watch him fix more nails...
And...
Lifting me gently, caring for my fucked up sweet broken body...FUUUCCCKKK!
Dropping me!
My fucking back!
I want this!
And...tying my legs...body on the nails..
They’re looking at me...My belly rising and falling as I gasp...my lovely breata, my pretty face, smeared in bloody filth...
And...I know...he has to...my hands...4 nails again...Sickening awfulness...my body heaves...
Not done...hooks...don’t mess my face!
My pretty nose...pulled open...little hurt swallowed in drowning pain...Up to me, tell myself...whatever you do, they do, just don’t move your head...
Nipples hard...tied and pulled outwards and down and weighted...shouldn’t this hurt me? It doesn’t...
I’m ready. Pulled open so they can see all of me. My back is ruined...Now they will ruin me everywhere...
I am ready. I want this so much...
The beauty of unconsciousness...I’m imagining they’re looking at me laid out on my torture horse.
They think I’m blank...barely breathing...But how can they be so wrong?
I am fully conscious...it’s just my body that, for now, has unplugged from my mind...so no pain for now...but, if I want to I can imagine my pain and it’s just beautiful and just awful and I love being me here right now.
Because I’m outside my(self) body and I can look at me, stare down at my beautiful body, my pretty face...Look at my torn flesh and my bloody back and my cunt oozing crimson stained cum and my lips dripping spittle and drool and I look so lovely.
If I was that gorgeous body I would be so so happy...If I looked at that fucked over, ripped, tortured torso, those broken hands, I would be so full of envy. I would so much want to be that girl, tied and nailed onto that torture horse in that dank cellar. Waiting for the next whipping, the next bout of pain...waiting to be half-way through my penance, waiting for my death.
And knowing...I know...that it’s the certainty of my death, the death I have agreed to, that I have asked for, that makes my helplessness real and that elevates my suffering. And yes, I wish it could go on for ever, but yes, it’s the reality that it is coming to an end, slowly, agonisingly, that makes it real for me...
...And I know that for some of you, reading this, you probably wish now that you were me, just like I wish that I really was Petronilla...and maybe even one of you...you know...who is about to whip me...well, just watch and dream...it could be you..
And now I want it real again and I want my hurt and my pain and my body...
“Aiiiiiiiieeeee!!”
Yes!
Fuuuuccckkk!
My fucking body’s on fire!!
Soaking and burning!!!
And my pretty face...cum and blood and piss and I don’t care..
Aaaaaaaagh!!!! And now my fucking torn hands!
And I’m face down in the mess of water and piss and blood and he’s pulling it from me and my cunt is ripping and...
I watch him fix more nails...
And...
Lifting me gently, caring for my fucked up sweet broken body...FUUUCCCKKK!
Dropping me!
My fucking back!
I want this!
And...tying my legs...body on the nails..
They’re looking at me...My belly rising and falling as I gasp...my lovely breata, my pretty face, smeared in bloody filth...
And...I know...he has to...my hands...4 nails again...Sickening awfulness...my body heaves...
Not done...hooks...don’t mess my face!
My pretty nose...pulled open...little hurt swallowed in drowning pain...Up to me, tell myself...whatever you do, they do, just don’t move your head...
Nipples hard...tied and pulled outwards and down and weighted...shouldn’t this hurt me? It doesn’t...
I’m ready. Pulled open so they can see all of me. My back is ruined...Now they will ruin me everywhere...
I am ready. I want this so much...
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