Time to add a story with some pics again. I post this in my non-crux thread, although it contains crucifixion-elements. I wrote this for someone on reddit named PossessionJane. I don't know if it is about being possessed, or about having a psychosis. That's up to the reader to decide.
The visitor in the Dark
I woke in a way that didn’t feel like waking. My eyes opened, but the world around me was steeped in an unnatural darkness, thick and suffocating. My body was frozen. Not the sleepy heavinessof waking too quickly—no, this was something deeper, more sinister. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t scream. I was a prisoner inside my own skin.
Then, I heard it.
“Hello, darling.”
The voice was soft but chilling, sliding into my mind like a blade. I knew it instantly, and my heart plummeted into my stomach. Adrian. My ex. The man I had spent months running from, healingfrom, trying to forget. But he was dead. His life taken by a sturdy tree at a drunk driving accident. The best thing that ever happened to me.
“Miss me?”
A sob caught in my throat, but no sound came. My mind raced, a kaleidoscope of panic and disbelief. This wasn’t real. It couldn’t be real.
“You always were so stubborn,” he said, the amusement in his voice sending ice through my veins. “But don’t worry, sweetheart. I’ll teach you to listen this time.”
Terror surged as my body began to move—but not of my own accord. My hand twitched, then lifted to my face. My fingers brushed my cheek, almost tenderly. Then, with a sharp force, my palmslapped me across the face.
Pain blossomed, but it was nothing compared to the fear. “Stop!” I tried to scream, but my mouth wouldn’t open. My thoughts were wild, frantic.Please, God, wake me up. Let this be a nightmare.
“You thought you could escape me,” he continued, his voice tightening with anger. “Even in death, you thought you were free. But I’ll show you, my love. You’remine. Always.”
Tears streamed down my face as I begged silently. He made me stand, my legs jerking to life like a puppet on strings. I stumbled to the mirror, the horror of my reflection compounding my panic.My face was pale, streaked with tears, my eyes wide and wild. But it was my body that made me want to shatter the glass.
I was moving, but it wasn’t me. My hands began to undo my clothes, slowly, deliberately, until I was naked. I wanted to look away, but I couldn’t. I was trapped, forced to watchmyself through his eyes.
“Still beautiful,” he murmured. “I never stopped loving you, you know.”
The bile rose in my throat. Every second felt like an eternity of violation.
Then the needle appeared. I didn’t know where it came from, but suddenly it was in my hand, glinting in the faint light, a thread dangling from it’s eye.
“No,” I thought, the word a scream inside my head. “Please, no!”
But my fingers worked against my will, threading the needle with mechanical precision.
“You’ll never leave me again,” he whispered, and the cold finality in his voice made me feel like I was drowning.
My hand moved lower, the needle hovering just below my belly. The sharp point seemed to pulse, threatening. The needle pierced my nether lips, and sew them together. I was sealing my own womanhood.
My mind screamed. “Please, Adrian,” I thought desperately. “You were abusive. You cheated. You lied. You beat me and burnt me with cigarettes. You sent me to hospital. Youdrove away my family and friends. You took all my salary and savings. Leaving you was the best thing I ever did!”
My lungs seized as the air was stolen from me. My mouth hung open, gasping for breath, but nothing came. I was consumed by fear. The world began to blur, black spots blooming in my vision.
“Do you see now?” he said, calm and detached. “This is what happens when you resist me.”
The suffocation released, and I collapsed to the floor, heaving and sobbing. My whole body shook with terror.
“Next time, it’ll be worse,” he said. “Next time, I’ll make you kill your mother.”
I screamed in my head, raw and primal, but it only seemed to amuse him.
And then I woke up.
The scream burst from my lips as I bolted upright in bed. My room was bathed in the soft light of morning, and for a moment, I thought it was over. Just a nightmare.
But the stinging between my legs told a different story. My hands shook as I lifted the sheet.
The bloody thread in my nether lips was real.
The visitor in the Dark (Part II)
My ordeal didn’t end when I woke in my bed, the thread binding my flesh a cruel reminder of his presence. It continued, dragging me deeper into the suffocating abyss.
I was no longer in my room. Instead, I was standing on my apartment floor, my body trembling as the spirit of Adrian coiled around my mind like a predator savoring its prey. His voice was alow murmur in my skull, intimate and menacing.
“You’ll do exactly as I say,” he ordered. “And don’t even think about fighting me. I read your mind all the time. I never get tired.”
The fear in me was primal, a cold thing that sat in my chest like a stone. My lips trembled as I whispered, “Please, Adrian, don’t do this.”
“Don’t beg, sweetheart,” he said with a chuckle. “You always did sound pathetic when you begged.”
My feet moved without my consent, carrying me to the closet. He made me grab my raincoat, nothing else. The synthetic fabric felt rough against my skin, the chill of my nakedness unbearablebeneath its weight.
“Good girl,” he said, his satisfaction twisting my stomach into knots. “Now, we need a few things. A jerrycan of gasoline, a lighter, a hammer and some big nails. A lengthof chain and some padlocks. You’ll know what to do.”
“Why?” I choked out, tears streaming down my face. “What are you going to do?”
“You mean, what are you going to do?” His voice was a sneer. “Punishment, sweetheart. For leaving me. For abandoningme when I loved you. Do you think you deserve to escape unscathed?”
His words dragged me back to memories I’d spent so long trying to bury. The shouting. The slaps. The nights I sat curled on the bathroom floor, too afraid to leave, too afraid to stay.The moments he broke things—objects, me—when his rage got the better of him.
“No,” I whimpered. “You didn’t love me. You hurt me. You controlled me.”
“And now you’ll feel what it’s like to be helpless,” he said, his voice cold and final.
I drove to the store in a daze, his control over my body absolute. The raincoat swayed as I stepped out of the car, and I could feel the eyes of strangers on me. They didn’t know, notfor sure, but they sensed something. Maybe it was the way I hunched my shoulders, the way my arms clutched the coat to myself like a shield.
“You’re making them nervous,” Adrian said with a laugh. “They know you’re mine, even now.”
I wanted to scream, to cry, to fight, but I was too scared. His power was absolute, his cruelty endless.
Inside the hardware store, the clerk gave me a wary look as I placed the items on the counter. My shaking hands betrayed me, my cheeks burning under the weight of his gaze.
“Rough day?” the clerk asked cautiously.
I wanted to scream, Help me! Save me! but the words wouldn’t come. Adrian made me smile instead.
“Just running errands,” I heard myself say, my voice calm and detached.
The drive home was worse. The gasoline sloshed in the jerrycan, the sound a macabre rhythm to Adrian’s taunts. “Do you remember the night you locked me out?” he asked. “Howyou thought you’d finally won? You were nothing without me. You still are.”
“No,” I thought weakly. “I’m not nothing.”
But I didn’t believe it. Not then. Not with him tearing me apart from the inside.
By the time I got home, I was shaking so badly I could barely stand. Adrian’s laughter filled my ears as he forced me to lay the supplies on the kitchen table.
“You’ll see soon enough,” he said, his voice soft but filled with malice. “You’ll know what happens to women who leave me.”
Tears poured down my face as I whispered, “Why are you doing this? You’re dead. Just let me go. Stay dead.”
“I’ll never let you go,” he snarled, the fury in his voice like a storm. “Not in life. Not in death. You are mine.”
And then, like a cruel twist of fate, I woke up again.
This time, it felt real. The winter sunlight streaming through the window, the muffled sounds of traffic outside. My heart pounded as I sat up, my chest heaving with relief. It had only beena dream.
But I was wearing a raincoat. My pussy was sewed shut. The jerrycan, the chain, the padlocks—they were on the kitchen table.
The visitor in the Dark (Final Chapter)
I sat on the edge of my bed, trembling, clutching the sheets so tightly my knuckles ached. My heart hadn’t stopped pounding since I woke up from the last dream—or what I thoughthad been a dream. The jerrycan of gasoline, the chain, the padlocks—they were still on the kitchen table. The sight of them twisted my stomach into a knot.
Adrian’s voice slithered into my mind again. “Are you doubting yourself now, sweetheart? Poor thing. You’ve always been so fragile.”
“No,” I whispered aloud, clutching my head. “This isn’t real. You’re not real!”
“Aren’t I?” His laughter was sharp, slicing through my thoughts. Should I call emergency services? A priest?
I reached for my phone, the screen trembling in my hands as I opened the contacts. The first name I saw was Mom. My chest heaved as I debated calling her, telling her everything. Maybe she could help. Maybe she could save me.
But Adrian's presence swelled like a shadow, heavy and oppressive. Before I could hit the call button, my arm twisted violently, yanking the phone from my hands.
“No!” I screamed, tears spilling down my face.
“You don’t get to run to Mommy every time life gets hard,” he sneered.
My hand smashed the phone into the wall. The screen shattered in a spray of glass, the pieces glittering like cruel stars on the floor. My chest tightened suddenly, violently, as if an ironband had clamped around my ribs.
“You’re making this harder than it has to be,” Adrian said coldly.
My lungs burned, my body spasming as I clawed at my throat. Just as the darkness started closing in, he released me, and I collapsed to the floor, gasping for air.
“You’re going to see her anyway,” he said. “But it’ll be on my terms.”
I didn’t want to go. My entire being screamed to resist, but my legs betrayed me, carrying me to the kitchen. My hands took the chain, the padlock and the hammer. The gasoline and thelighter. I could do nothing to stop my body, while my mind screamed in despair. I grabbed the spare key to my mother’s house from the hook without meaning to. The night was cold, the raincoat my only barrier againstthe chill, but I hardly felt it. I was locked inside my own body, a passenger to Adrian’s rage.
The drive to my mother’s house was a blur of cold and terror. I tried to resist him, screaming inside my mind, begging for mercy. His grip only tightened, his silence more terrifyingthan his words.
I entered my mother’s house like a thief, the spare key cold in my trembling hand. Rain dripped from my coat, pooling on the hardwood floor as I stood in the dim hallway, every musclein my body taut with resistance.
"Don’t make this harder than it needs to be," Adrian’s voice whispered, low and venomous.
“Please,” I begged him, tears streaming down my face. “Please don’t hurt her. She didn’t do anything to you.”
Adrian’s laughter echoed in my skull, sharp and cruel. “She raised you. She poisoned your mind, convincing you to stand up against me. She supported you when you betrayed me. Thisis as much her fault as it is yours.”
I wanted to fight him, to turn and run, but my legs moved against my will, carrying me silently down the hall to her bedroom door. The sight of her, asleep and peaceful in her bed, shatteredsomething inside me.
“Adrian, I’ll do anything you want,” I pleaded. “Just leave her out of this!”
But my body didn’t stop. My hand reached for the hammer he’d made me bring. The cold weight of it felt alien in my grip, a weapon I couldn’t control. My chest heaved as Ifought against his influence, but it was useless.
“She’s better off this way,” he said, his voice mocking. “Better than watching you spiral into ruin.”
The first blow came without warning, the hammer crashing down onto her shoulder. The scream that erupted from her lips was raw and guttural, filled with confusion and terror.
“Mom!” I screamed inside my mind, desperate to break through. “Mom, I’m sorry!”
Her eyes flew open, wild with pain, locking onto me. For a brief moment, she recognized me, and her expression twisted from terror to betrayal.
“Why—why are you—” she stammered, her voice breaking.
“It’s not me!” I wanted to shout, but no words came. Adrian forced my arm to swing again, the hammer striking her in the middle of her face this time. Bone cracked beneaththe impact, and she cried out in agony.
My heart shattered into pieces. My thoughts were a chaotic swirl of despair and rage. “Adrian, please! Stop this!”
“Do you really think begging will save her?” he sneered.
He made me drag her from the bed, her broken body struggling weakly against the force of my hands. My body was unnaturally strong, surprising me with how easily I could handle my weakly strugglingmother. Her sobs pierced through my mind, each one a dagger to my soul.
“Don’t fight it,” Adrian said. “Just let it happen. The more you resist, the worse it gets.”
I carried her to the door, her cries growing weaker with every step. Her body slumped against the wood as Adrian forced me to raise her arms, pinning them in place.
“No, no, no,” I whispered internally, tears blinding me as my hand lifted the first nail.
Her eyes met mine again, filled with fear and disbelief. “Why are you doing this?” she whimpered.
“It’s not me!” I screamed inside, my voice useless against the iron grip of Adrian’s control.
The hammer came down, driving the nail through her wrist and into the door. Her scream was deafening, raw and animalistic. Blood trickled down her arm, staining her nightgown.
I wanted to die. I wanted to tear myself apart, to rip Adrian out of my mind, out of my body. But he was relentless. He made me drive another nail into her other wrist, then her ankles. Eachstrike of the hammer echoed through the house, the sound reverberating in my head like a death knell.
When it was done, she hung spreadeagle against the door, her body trembling, her breaths shallow and labored. Blood pooled at her feet, glistening in the dim light.
Adrian made me step back, forcing me to look at the horror I’d created. My mother’s tear-streaked face twisted in pain, her lips moving in silent pleas.
“You did well,” Adrian said, his voice dripping with satisfaction.
“Please,” I begged him, my thoughts fractured and desperate. “She’s still alive. Let me help her. Please, Adrian, I’ll do anything.”
“Oh, you will,” he said coldly. “But not yet.”
My mother’s weak voice broke through the haze of despair. “I forgive you,” she whispered, her words a faint, labored breath.
That forgiveness was the final blow.
Adrian’s presence loomed over me, his laughter cruel and endless. “Now, my love, it’s your turn. Let’s finish this.” Suddenly he released his grip on my body.
My legs buckled, and I crumpled to the floor, sobbing uncontrollably, my heart shattering under the weight of my helplessness.
“Now,” he said, his voice calm, “you’ll do exactly as I say, or I’ll make her suffer even more. And I make you do the same to your cousins. To your nieces andnephews. You know I can make you do that. Do you understand?”
I nodded weakly, my tears pooling on the hardwood floor.
He made me gather the chain, the padlocks, the gasoline and lighter. He made me drag them into my mother’s bedroom and chain myself to the bed.
“Adrian,” I whispered, my voice raw. “Please, don’t make me do this.”
“I told you, love,” he said. “You’ll suffer for what you did to me. Empty the jerrycan over yourself.” Knowing that resistance was futile, I did what he toldme.
The gasoline was cold as it soaked into my skin. The fumes made me gag, but I couldn’t stop myself. The lives of too many family members were at stake.
When the lighter flared to life, I felt a strange calm. Maybe it was resignation, or maybe it was the faint hope that this would finally end.
The fire caught rapidly, engulfing me and the whole bed. The gasoline-soaked fabric of my raincoat ignited with a sickening hiss, the flames licking at my legs and crawling upward with an agonizingdeliberateness. Heat surged through me, more intense than anything I had ever imagined.
I screamed, a guttural, raw sound, but it felt futile. The room filled with acrid smoke, stinging my eyes and burning my throat. I thrashed against the chains, the metal biting into my waist,but there was no escape. I heard my mother scream as the flames reached her.
“Fight all you want,” Adrian’s voice murmured in my mind. “It’s beautiful to watch.”
The fire consumed my skin, the pain searing and relentless. Every nerve screamed in protest, the sensation like knives stabbing me over and over, deeper and deeper. My vision blurred as tearsmixed with smoke, and I gagged on the fumes.
“Please!” I choked out, the words barely audible over the crackling roar of the flames.
But Adrian only laughed, his voice mocking. “Did you think I’d let you off that easily? You’ll suffer for what you did to me. You’ll burn for leaving me.”
The fire climbed higher, reaching my chest and arms. My skin blistered and cracked, the agony so intense it was almost surreal. I clawed at the bed, desperate to pull away, but the chains heldme fast. My legs kicked uselessly, the flames consuming every inch of exposed flesh.
I screamed again, my voice raw and shredded. “Stop! Please, stop!”
Adrian was silent now, his presence looming like a shadow over the chaos. I knew he was watching, savoring every second.
The fire reached my face, and I clenched my eyes shut, feeling the skin on my cheeks peel away. My scalp burned, my hair igniting in a blaze of white-hot agony. My lungs felt like they wereimploding, each breath pulling in smoke and heat instead of air.
I tried to focus on anything but the pain—memories of my mother, moments of peace, anything to anchor myself. But the fire devoured those too, leaving only Adrian’s cold laughterechoing in my mind.
“Do you feel it now?” he whispered, his voice a venomous caress. “This is what it’s like to lose everything.”
I sobbed, my body wracked with tremors even as it began to fail. The edges of my vision darkened, the pain ebbing slightly as numbness crept in. My body was giving up, my mind teetering onthe edge of collapse.
As the fire reached its peak, my thoughts began to scatter. My screams faded into weak gasps, my strength gone. I was floating in the flames now, detached from my body, watching the horrorunfold from a distance.
And then, finally, the fire consumed me entirely.
Darkness fell, absolute and still. The pain was gone, but so was everything else. For a moment, I felt a strange sense of peace, as if I had finally escaped.
Then the tunnel appeared.
I was pulled forward, weightless, the darkness giving way to a faint, glowing light at the end. For the first time in what felt like an eternity, I felt something other than fear: hope. Sothis is the afterlife, I thought.
I reached for the light, drawn to it like a moth to a flame. It was warm, inviting, almost soothing.
But as I drew closer, the shape of a man emerged, standing in the center of the glow. My heart froze as I recognized him.
Adrian.
He smiled, his arms outstretched as if welcoming me into an embrace. His voice was soft, almost gentle now.
“I told you, sweetheart. You’ll never leave me.”
The end