taquisem
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Hello to all. I have hesitated a lot before writing because of my poor English, so i beg your pardon if it seems too basic.
But i must say how much this fórums, poem and posts helped me to understand the behavior of my first girlfriend.
The thing happened time ago and i was madly in love with her. The first year was wonderful, she was cheerful, always smiling, smart and with a bright clear look in her eyes.
But one day i discovered her trying to hang herself from a Wood beam over the window. She was naked and she didnt see me. I was confused and didnt know how to react, so i didnt say a word. Of course the image in my mind was such a powerful hammer in my brain that i hardly could sleep after that.
Some weeks after she began to talk about crucifixión. Sincerly i had a (sorry) a "hard on" every time but i tried to listen to her with a ... lets say ... distant opinión.
But one day she openly said she wants to be crucified in an open air like a forest and she asked me to do it ..... ohhh... i will never forget her eyes in that momento .....
I couldnt do.
It was imposible to me to hurt her in any way.
Even it aroused me, i wasnt able to make her feel any pain, i was in love and all this thing drove me crazy. So i said no no and no. It was too much for me.
So after that, the relation began to frozen and her eyes wasnt never the same.
Some time later we sepparated and now i dont know nothing about her.
Now i understand many things reading the post of the members and how i regret every day not being able to understand her better and fullfilled her needs.
And know i constantly think that she has found men who crucify her naked in some forests in the world and im not there to wash her wounds.
So sorry.
But i must say how much this fórums, poem and posts helped me to understand the behavior of my first girlfriend.
The thing happened time ago and i was madly in love with her. The first year was wonderful, she was cheerful, always smiling, smart and with a bright clear look in her eyes.
But one day i discovered her trying to hang herself from a Wood beam over the window. She was naked and she didnt see me. I was confused and didnt know how to react, so i didnt say a word. Of course the image in my mind was such a powerful hammer in my brain that i hardly could sleep after that.
Some weeks after she began to talk about crucifixión. Sincerly i had a (sorry) a "hard on" every time but i tried to listen to her with a ... lets say ... distant opinión.
But one day she openly said she wants to be crucified in an open air like a forest and she asked me to do it ..... ohhh... i will never forget her eyes in that momento .....
I couldnt do.
It was imposible to me to hurt her in any way.
Even it aroused me, i wasnt able to make her feel any pain, i was in love and all this thing drove me crazy. So i said no no and no. It was too much for me.
So after that, the relation began to frozen and her eyes wasnt never the same.
Some time later we sepparated and now i dont know nothing about her.
Now i understand many things reading the post of the members and how i regret every day not being able to understand her better and fullfilled her needs.
And know i constantly think that she has found men who crucify her naked in some forests in the world and im not there to wash her wounds.
So sorry.