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Marcella’s Crucifixion: Episode 7
The Slave Speaks
The day grinds on in hot, relentless agony for the three women. Within an hour on the cross the slave has exhausted herself. Her movements become more controlled, less frantic, as she struggles. Clouds of insects fly around the heads of the women and settle on their wounds. Flies! Horrible flies! Their buzzing and intrusion into every body opening is a torture worthy of crucifixion. They bite and feed off the women’s sweat and blood. Marcella is sickened knowing they are laying eggs in her pierced flesh. By tomorrow there will be maggots. She prays she is dead by then.
The late afternoon heat feels like a suffocating oven. There is no breeze. The women are suffering unimaginable torments as they are baked under the merciless rays of the sun and bedeviled by insects. Their raw, whipped flesh oozes fluids. The executioners give the women water every hour or so to prevent them from dying too soon from dehydration. They eagerly accept the water squirted in their mouths, though much of it simply dribbles out over their chests. The oppressiveness of the day keeps the crowd quiet as spectators come and go.
Marcella notices the Decurion looking up at her. How many times has he done this? He watches her with that mournful, sad look on his face she has seen before. He knows I’m innocent but he never did anything to save me from being crucified. So fuck him! She doesn’t need his fucking pity! She tries calling out to him from the cross a few times, begging him to kill her and Thessela, begging for the mercy of a quick death. Haven’t we suffered enough! But he does nothing, just walks away, only to return again and again. What is he looking for? Is he trying to soothe his conscience over this? Am I supposed to say something? Forgive him?
View attachment 406718 The Decurion before Marcella's cross.
Marcella’s tortured, feverish brain obsesses about the Decurion’s interest in her. Why the fuck does he continue to look at me. Maybe it’s my tits. Do you like looking at my tits, Roman? Oh, I bet you do! Or do you prefer my cunt? Yes, my lovely, tight virginal cunt. I bet you wish you had fucked me too, huh? Oh, too bad you can’t get to me now! Go stare at the slave! She has tits and a pussy, and from what I can see she’s young and cute – no beauty like Thess – but why not go stare at her? Maybe she’ll shake her titties at you. Or spread her legs to give you a good view. Whatever! Just get away from me! Stop looking at me you goddam Roman bastard! I don’t need your bullshit pity. Let me alone, let me die, let me die!
Suddenly Marcella feels a great sense of shame. For the first time in hours she’s extremely aware of her nakedness. She desperately wants to cover her breasts and crotch, but of course cannot. Marcella sobs, burning with humiliation to be seen like this. “Go away, get away from me,” she shouts at the Decurion. “Just leave me the fuck alone! I don’t want you looking at me! It isn’t right for you to be staring at me! It isn’t right! It isn’t right!” She collapses and hangs from her arms. She can do nothing but rage and cry at the utter loss of her dignity. What has this man done to her?
Hanging in the insufferable heat, Marcella drifts in an out of consciousness. Each time consciousness returns it is accompanied with the roaring pain of tortured muscles and nails through her flesh. And each time Marcella’s mind reminds her with a sickening realization that she is crucified.
Marcella is jolted to awareness by a sharp stick jabbing into her crotch. She groans with the familiar agony and the shocking awareness of her situation. This time she had a short dream. She was walking naked through a field of tall grass. Some sort of seductive music was playing. There was no pain, just contentment. She put her hands out to feel the feathery heads of the stems, ripe with seeds, caress her palms as she walks. The soft grass tickled between her thighs and in her crotch. What a delicious sensation as the long stems passed over her pussy lips, caressing and tickling her with their soft, feathery touch! How sensuous, how arousing! She feels a moistness between her thighs as her passion rises. But suddenly the sensuous tickle became painful, as though thorns were being scraped across her tender flesh. Then a sharp stabbing sensation between her legs. She yelped as her eyes flew open. The field, the grass, the music . . . the contentment, are gone. She’s back in the real world where she’s crucified between her sister and a slave. She’s crucified!
With consciousness comes her need to breathe. But Marcella can no longer raise herself up on the cross as earlier. She’s far too weak. Her leg muscles are in spasmodic contractions. Thanks to her torture with the strappado she has long been unable to pull up with her arms. Her damaged shoulder muscles radiate constant, intense pain. The pain from her nailed wrists is worse than ever. No, all she can do is tense her legs and push up against the foot rest and the nail through her feet to take some tension off her arms. Grunting with the pain she pushes up enough to draw quick, shallow breaths. But her tortured leg muscles cannot push up for long. Soon she must relax them and drop back down, hanging from her wrists. She tries not to move, closing her eyes and letting her head drop as the agony envelopes her.
“Miss, miss, can you hear me?” A small, soft voice penetrates Marcella’s tortured awareness. Again, “Miss, please, can you hear me. I must talk with you. Please miss, listen to me!”
Marcella opens her eyes to the horror of her existence. The relentless pain, bright and hot, consumes her. Looking forward she sees faces in the crowd staring up at her, their voices just background noise. Now they’re pointing, laughing and making the usual obscene gestures. Did she hear someone calling to her? Someone not in the crowd? Or was it her imagination? She drops her head to her chest and stares down between her breasts to the ground below. Is that wet spot her piss? It must be.
“Miss, please, it’s me, next to you. Please, may I speak with you?”
That was a voice. A soft, breathy female voice. What did she say? Marcella looks over at her sister. It’s not Thessela. She’s busy pushing her body up to breathe. Her groans are loud and desperate. Poor Thess! She’s suffering so much!
Again the voice, more insistent. “For god’s sake miss, please, I must speak with you!” Only one other possibility. She turns her head to the left and sees the face of the slave girl looking towards her from her cross. Marcella hadn’t looked her in the face since she was first crucified, hours ago, and certainly hadn’t tried to speak with her since then.
Now the slave is trying to speak to her again. “Fuck you, you bitch!” Marcella turns her head, and rages at the slave. “Why would I want to talk to you? You put me here, you put my sister here! We are dying because of you! Fuck you, cunt!” Marcella shocks herself with the obscenities she used. But, then again, she’s an innocent woman, dying on a cross -- crucified! She was entitled.
“Please, listen to me,” pleads the slave. She gasps as she tries to speak; her chest rising and falling, her ribs protruding, her belly concave. “I know you’re angry, but please understand, I never attacked my domina thinking someone else would pay for the crime. I always expected to be caught and punished. I knew that was my fate. I am so, so sorry that you were mistaken for me. But it wasn’t my fault, I never knew you were identified as me. I’ve been in the dungeon since my capture nearly seven days ago. I – I was just trying to be free. Please, understand, I was a slave. My master was a terrible man, as was my mistress. I was just trying to be free! All I wanted was my freedom! Please understand!”
The slave was breathless and shuddering with agony by the time she finished. She clearly needed air. With an agonized grunt she began pushing and pulling herself up and arching her back in order to breath. Marcella too needed to fill her lungs. When the slave dropped back down on her cross, Marcella was waiting to speak with her. Though it was agonizing to do so, she kept her legs tensed, pushing up a bit, to make it easier to speak. Marcella was very weak and exhausted from her earlier outburst. She would have to pace herself better.
“Miss, let me say --“The slave begins, her words labored by the agonies of her crucifixion.
“No, wait, wait,” gasps Marcella. “I know I shouldn’t blame you, but you need to understand I’m dying for nothing. Nothing! I never did anything wrong! I am sorry you are a slave, and I understand your desire for freedom, but I am a fucking innocent woman! I’m only 19 years old and my life was taken from me. I’ve been tortured, raped and crucified because nobody took the time to know the truth about me!
Marcella is close to shouting, but her voice quavers and breaks. The exertion has her trembling and tensed, horrified and enraged anew about what has happened! She starts gasping for breath. Panic seizes her and she urgently tries to push up, twisting on her nails. Waves of agony slash through her limbs. Fresh blood flows from her wounds. Her strength falters and she drops down, hanging from her arms. Her eyes are open wide, her heart pounds in her chest. Her panic escalates as she cannot inflate her lungs – she cannot breathe! Marcella desperately wants to die but her body refuses to obey – it wants to survive! She has no choice. With her head pointed skyward she pushes up with her cramped and burning thighs, her feet twisting on the foot nail. She tries to scream but cannot. Finally, at the point of passing out, she’s able to gulp in air. She rapidly inhales and exhales, keeping her head pointing skyward, as if the precious air would simply flow into her. Shaking and gasping she drops back down to once again hang from her arms. Urine dribbles down between her legs. Her pee hole burns with a red hot fire.
The crowd hoots and jeers to see Marcella’s struggles. “Shake those tits, honey,” she hears.
“Look at her piss,” shouts another.
“Miss, please, miss,” the slave addresses Marcella again.
Marcella breathes in rapid, shallow breaths as she turns her head back toward the slave. The slave is also breathing in quick, shallow gasps. It is difficult for both of them to speak. Marcella’s arms are numb but she feels the trickle of fresh blood in her armpits and down the sides of her chest. The slave too is hanging from her arms, as she relaxes her cramped legs. Her breasts are pulled high on her chest; their tumescent nipples jutting forward. The slave’s throws her head against the back of the cross, sucks in a deep breath and turns her head towards Marcella.
“I know you’ve been wrongfully condemned,” the slave gasps between spasms of pain. “But please do not blame me! We three are dying together. There’s a bond between us. But your sister has cursed me. I won’t be able to enter the afterlife with a curse on me. I deserve to be here but you and your sister do not. Please, I am so sorry that you two are crucified with me, but do not curse me for it! Curse the fucking Romans, their fucking laws, and their enslavement of free people!”
The slave groans as she forces out the last emotional words. Marcella watches as her head drops to her chest as her body trembles in agony. She tenses her legs to push up against the nails through her heels. Her body shudders from the blinding agony as her heel bones turn against the spikes. The slave has no way to use her feet to push against the wood of her cross, so she has to use her arms more to drag herself up. The muscles in her skinny arms tense as she pulls against the wrist nails. She grunts and howls in agony as her legs straighten and her body bows out from the cross. Though crucified herself, Marcella’s stomach turns over at the thought of slave’s heel bones grinding against the spikes. It seems even worse than her own situation.
”Why are you listening to that fucking cunt?” Marcella’s head snaps to the right to see Thessela eyes, burning with anger and pain. ‘I can see you, cunt,” she hisses, straining to see the slave beyond the profile of Marcella’s body. “Stop trying to make excuses to my sister. Your action put us here -- to die for your crime!”
View attachment 406721 Thessela shouts her curses at the Romans.
The slave shouts back defiantly. “Your sister is innocent, yes, but you killed a soldier! You are here for that. That’s not my fault!”
Thessela fires back, her voice cracked and hoarse. “It is your fault you fucking bitch! If you hadn’t escaped none of this would have happened! Can’t you understand that!” She’s gasping for air, straining to fill her lungs. Her curvaceous body twists sinuously on the cross as she tries to rise up. She grunts and howls in agony, uttering curses and condemnations as she pushes and pulls against her nails. The crowd shifts its attention to Thessela.
“Yeah bitch, shake those tits! More! Look at ‘em bounce!”
“Grind that ass! Yeah, let’s see that pussy. Spread those legs girl!”
After gulping precious air Thessela drops back down and continues her rant against the slave.
“You fucking whore cunt! I hit the soldier because my innocent baby sister was being arrested. I didn’t mean to kill him. I acted on impulse! But it was you who brought all this about! Now, I’ll never see home again, never see my parents and my children. No one will know what became of me and my sister. Our deaths are on your head, you fucking whore! Damn you for all eternity! Damn you! Fucking damn you to hell!”
Thick spittle flies from Thessela’s lips as she struggles to expel the words, her voice raspy almost to the point of silence. Gasping for air, she pushes up to breathe.
Marcella knows in her own mind that the slave isn’t responsible for her and Thessela’s crucifixions. The girl was only seeking freedom from terrible bondage. What is wrong with that? She realizes that she and Thessela have only been looking for someone to blame. But it is wrong to blame the slave when there are so many others they can blame. Marcella turns back to her. She’s hanging with her head down, arms stretched taut as a bow string from the crossbeam. She’s breathing in and out with a hard, raspy sound.
View attachment 406720 Marcella and the slave have a conversation.
“Hey,” says Marcella, “can you hear me? I want to speak to you.”
The slave looks at her, her face streaked with tears, and blood.
Marcella gasps, trying to find her voice. “What’s your name?” Marcella’s elevated chest heaves, breasts rising and falling, as she struggles to find her voice.
“What do you care?” comes the answer. “Just call me ‘slave.’ That’s what people call me.”
“But you do have a name, no? Please tell me. I – I would feel awkward addressing you as ‘slave.’
“I’m Anna.”
Thessela rages again. “Yes, Anna! That’s your fucking name. Now I recall it! Don’t talk to my sister you bitch. Leave us alone. You cannot justify what you did. You cannot!”
Marcella looks back at Thessela. “Please, Thess, I must speak with her.” She watches as Thessela drops on her cross, her body spasmodically twitching. She’s muttering something, but Marcella cannot make it out.
Turning her head the other way she says “Thank you, Anna. I’m Marcella, and my sister is Thessela.”
The slave – Anna – looked back at her. As though confused about what to do with that information. “Yes, miss.” She replied in a raspy voice.
“No, please. Anna, please call me Marcella, that who I am. I’m not ‘miss.’”
“OK. Yes, Marcella.” Just as she said her name Anna uttered a deep moan, clenched her jaw, and began her ritual of pushing up to breathe. Marcella looked away, as if she were violating Anna’s privacy to continue looking at her in her agony as she tried to breathe. Soon, though, her soft voice returns.
“Your sister clearly hates me. You must too.”
Yes, she blames you for us being crucified. And I did too, but I understand better now. You were a slave. Your master was cruel. Why shouldn’t you try to escape.
“I don’t expect your pity, just understanding. I just don’t want to be cursed. It’ll haunt me in the netherworld. I want your sister to understand that I did not consciously will this to happen! Your misfortune is not my fault. Blame the fucking Romans, but not me. Please, get her to understand.”
“I understand, Anna, and I will try to get her to accept it. I don’t know how much time she or I have left. I will try before I die, really.
“Yes, let her know I am so sorry. My life was hell where I was. It’s better that I die here than live that slave existence.”
Marcella looks at Thessela. She calls to her but she does not respond. She’s exhausted and not willing or able to talk right now. Marcella’s is exhausted too. She’ll try to speak with Thessela again later. Right now, though, she desperately needs to breath. With agonized grunts she tries to push her body up on the cross.