I was thinking about our facination about crucifixion and its not kinda normal to find an execution as erotic feeling, so, maybe we comes from a person who in fact died in a cross? so rests of that experiences comes to us and make us move to find crucifixion a good thing?
Of course if reencarnation in some kind is real.
What do you think? maybe you were crucified to death for real in another life?
I don't really believe in reincarnation, or in existing as 'me' in any sense before or after this life,
'me' seems to me to be a physical organism with the temporary property of life,
and on top of that the intermittent property of consciousness,
both entirely dependent on that organism being in a particular condition: alive.
But who or what am 'I' that experiences being 'me'?
Still, maybe in my DNA there are inherited 'memories' of past experiences,
e.g. of being a female hunted, captured and impregnated,
and of the strange mixtures of pleasure and pain associated with them,
which might play some sort of part in my 'kink'.
And a friend of mine who does believe in reincarnation advises me
that if I feel strongly drawn to having some particular personality and/or experience
in my
next life, I should start mentally preparing myself for it now -
so maybe my slavegirl and crucifixion fantasies and play are a sort of rehearsal,
maybe next time around it will all be for real?