Yes Catholic, sent to Catholic schools, and attended Catholic seminary. I was always obsessed by the images and stories of the martyrs, especially the ones depicted almost naked and bound like St. Sebastian, and St. Andrew, although I only saw one or two images of him on his cross. In my martyrdom fantasies, my end varied but always included whipping, and more often than not, ended in crucifixion. I knew enough about ancient art to know that loincloths on statues was a post-renaissance sign of modesty, and that criminals were naked when crucified, so I imagined I would be displayed naked, and hard, while the spectators enjoyed my writhing in pain, gasping for air, and bleeding from my welted body.