The day of my crucifixion was a nightmare for my soul the same as it was for my mutilated body. I always knew I was fat and unattractive, but I never expected such hatred and contempt from my neighbours, friends and relatives, when they finally see me nailed and lifted high over their heads, naked and defenceless.
"Hello, slut! Nice to see you, and we are happy that you finally met the justice! And now, don't pretend to be so shy and show us your dirty hairy cunt!"
"Ha, ha, ha, exactly! And now lift your body up higher! Show your shame to everybody!"
"Are you really this decent? All your efforts are in vain, you cannot fight the pain, you are too week and worthless, you whore!"
"Ha, ha, ha, what a wonderful view! Thanks a lot! Okay, now we can be sure that you are only a perverted pig, you damned ass!"
"Keep looking at yourself - it shall be twice this shameful for you! You see? You are fat and ugly and dirty and stinking, you Slavic piece of shit!"
And they begun to throw stones and rotten fruits in my direction, and to spit at my face and to touch my breasts and vulva, and to beat me with their fists and grab my knees to pull them wide apart and to stick fingers or sharp pieces of wood to my vagina and all the time they were smiling and telling jokes to one another and they were sneering and mocking me and repeating that they hate me until I begun to cry and weep and I lost control over my body, and they begun to laugh and applaud joyfully, and I couldn't bear any longer such hate nor the pain in my pierced limbs and so I fainted.
Not for long: the pain in my wrists revived me in seconds and the whole spectacle continued...