It was a day’s walk for sure and a hot day at that. I cannot get last night out of my head and not just surrendering my virginity to Sir Wragg. Do not get me wrong; I cannot imagine a better man to lose my virginity to and could not believe one could have sex that many times in one night. And my, what did he call it… Oh, I certainly climaxed and far more than once! But my head is filled with thoughts of being crucified. How does he find such events? Who arranges such a thing? How could I experience the cross? And more, how could I possibly confess what I did and what thoughts I have now?
I know I am near the town when I come upon a small stream. My habit sticks to my sweaty body and I decide to wash in the stream. Just as I am peeling off the habit a man steps out of the woods and points his gun at me. I freeze as I stand.
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He tells me to keep stripping. I protest and say “I am a nun, a woman of the cloth!”
After last night I feel like I am lying through my teeth! He says “Get your ‘cloth’ off, sister!”
“I have no money if you are here to rob me” I tell him as I strip my habit off. He seems pleased at the view.
“I’m not here to rob you. What are you doing here?” he demands.
“I… I am hot and sweaty from a long journey. I was going to bathe in the stream.”
“You
are going to bathe, but why are you on a long journey?”
“I have come to witness for the Lord” I reply wondering if the convent could have made a better choice than me.
He waves his gun and tells me to go ahead and bathe. I ask if he was going to watch and he laughs and says “I’m here to witness for myself!”
I go to the stream and begin to wash fully aware he is watching me. I take comfort in the fact that God gave me this body and if he wants to watch me he is admiring God’s creation. How’s that for rationalizing?
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I am done washing and it was very refreshing. I hear the man say “Her hair changed color.”
I wonder why he is talking to me in third person until I looked back at him and find he has company! There are four men looking at me and now blonde hair. Mother Superior had it colored brown because my fair hair would attract men with more than admiring glances. The color of my hair did not seem to matter to Sir Wragg and it doesn’t seem like the color was very lasting.
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Except when I was stripped and flogged at the convent I have never been naked before men before last night and a day after I gave up virginity I fear I am to be gang raped!
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