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Love you and care for you... Always....Ok. So let me tell a story. Of a girl. 18 years of age who went to the woods near her home. When she was about 13. After seeing The Stations of The Cross in her local Church. She thought she was so strange. Hated herself. Cut herself. Used her Fathers belt on her body. Went to the woods. Looked around to make sure she was alone.
A nice Summers day in Ireland. Now 18. Comfortable when she sees the tree. A runner cross country she knows these woods. She takes off the pink Nikes. Barefoot now she pulls off her singlet. Now naked save for her blue shorts. Climbs to her branch. 8 feet off the ground. Grasps the branch her arms spread wide and hangs there. She can stay now like this 2 maybe 2 and a half minutes. Exams coming up. What is this thing in her?
Exams go well. A chance to pick University in Cork. Online a lot at night she Googles Crucifixion. A site appears and she is awake for hours. Passion of a Goddess.
A link appears. CruxForums. Her birthday is so soon. She will be 19. Popular. Fit. A beaut her waste of a Dad tells her. She signs up and posts an avatar of a girl crucified.
Friends appear. Girls. Women. Boys and men. Lots of them. All unbelievable and so sweet. It would be unfair to be not open to anyone. Some as in all human life are closer to her at first. She calls herself Celtic Virgin. As she is.
Weeks pass. She makes love to a boy. A friend. He is lovely and understands that she is different. It is a quick romance. Her site becomes more important and relevant. Confidants and friends become a daily contact.
Her life takes its real course in Cork. A row ensues and she moves out of home. With a girl. Uni.
Six weeks later her doctor, worried about a weight loss begins a process. She tells her friends. She believes that honesty and Openess will be good. New friends and old. Her fantasies become real. Now the nightmare. Ongoing. Cancer. A torture in itself. She is confused how to deal with this and sees parallels between crucifixion and this horrible disease. If strong and good maybe she will survive. Friends become so important. Maybe she wants all to know how much they mean to her. That she loves them so much.
A New Year. Sentimental. Forgive my self indulgence. A new beginning. I must say this publically. For me. I don't know why.
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