According to the ancient Near Eastern sources, being tied to the tree and left to starve was perhaps one of the predecessors of the real crucifixion. And it was applied especially to the females.
Oh, someone is going to harvest her for his own use...
Awaiting their unevitable fate.
I love that,
what I see is ... I got a compassionate executioner, who's giving me time to mentally cope with my fate.
Instead of just slamming me down on the hurt-beam and pounding in the nails, he gives me enough time ...
to contemplate my patibulum,
... to move closer to it, touch it, accept it ...
... and he patiently waits until I find the strength in me to offer myself up,
... placing my hand to be fixed to the wood that will carry me up, up up and hold me and carry me finally beyond this tragic hopeless life.
... he looks me in the eye, and he understands, that what I'm asking for is not mercy, we are past that.
I'm asking for a bit more of that which he has been so generous in giving me -- patience -- so that I can muster the courage to close my fingers around the nail that lies so near, my nail, one of the death-nails, that will hold me, firm and unyielding ... I will feel its heavy weight and pointed sharpness, so clear in its purpose, and its coolness and texture. I will recognize His mercy in that it is a straight and clean nail, made for me to end upon, and not a crooked dirty one pulled from ... .... something rotting, decaying, something that is already, ... what I know ... I must be.
I would take it, caress it, and then, eyes locked, hand it to him.
I am ready, I hope you are too. Now don't hesitate and be quick.