It was beautiful sunny day, and I would be perfectly happy with being undressed and with the warm beams of sunlight caressing my naked skin, if the citizens hadn't been crowded around me, eager to see my nudity, and hadn't my nudity be forced. But now I was no longer citizen myself, but a condemned criminal, deprived with all my possession, including the last piece of clothing. And the only fate I could expect was being nailed to the wood of shame and pain. So I felt extremely gruesome, unhappy, ashamed and downed, and my face was red and terrified, to the contrast with their delighted, smiling faces.
As I was presented to the crowd, naked and ashamed, my parents approached me. My mother cursed me and my father spat at my feet. And then the soldiers grabbed me tightly and threw me to the ground, stretching my arms over the beam, reading the death sentence in the meanwhile. And then I felt the terrible pain of the nails being hammered, and I started convulsing, trying to break free, kicking my legs and screaming.
When I was nailed, two of them raped me applauded with the excited crowd, and I almost died of shame. And then they pulled up on the cross and lifted up, despite the overwhelming suffering I remained conscious. Looking around I realized that the crowd around my cross already numbered hundreds of people, most of whom I knew by sight, but there were also many of my close friends and relatives, and my parents stood in front of me and looked at me sternly, fully approving the enormity of the suffering inflicted on me.
At that time, the last nail was hammered into my feet and my long, painful agony began.
The hours of my torment passed slowly, people came and went, tired of the heat they went to rest in the shade, tired of hunger they went to eat, and those whose legs ached from standing went to sit down, only I still had to endure all these sufferings, in addition to the pain in the pierced limbs and the horrible shame of nudity.
Late in the afternoon the prefect of the city - the man who sentenced me to death on the cross in the morning - came to see me. He was pleased to see me tormented but when he walked around my cross he noticed that I had not been scourged, which was true, because the women condemned to the cross were not scourged. However, he instructed his soldiers to have me flogged now, since it had not been done earlier. He himself stood in front of me and, along with the crowd of onlookers, laughed at my jumps and jerks as heavy rough leather whips cut my skin on my shoulders, back, buttocks and thighs, then left me twice as painful and mutilated as before, and in addition I pissed myself in pain. During this extra torture, I almost lost my mind. My only dream was to die as soon as possible. Unfortunately, the dream of my torturers was exactly the opposite, so I could not count on their pity. Such a word did not exist in their vocabulary.
However finally it turned out that they were unable to prolong my torment as they wanted. The scourging caused too much shock to me and in the midnight I felt I was unable to lift my mutilated, blood-covered body on my pierced feet and wrists again. The longed-for death finally came and I greeted her with open arms and outstretched legs...