I know, I know.
I could spend my time picturing nails being driven through my wrists, crippling my hands into useless claws and fixing me to unforgiving wood, the tearing agony of my weight on them, the days of dreadly suffering...
But I'll try to dissociate my mind from that, try to shove those thoughts away into some dark corner of my mind, so that it's not myself who ends up huddled in a corner, rocking back and forth, whimpering while chewing my nails down to the bone...
So I'll worry about the little things. Like what goes on my titulus and what people think of it. Or with what exactly they're going to lay into my 'tastefully plump cheeks'. They always want to do that!
That's of course nonsense but they don't want to admit in public why they're really doing this!
Not related at all!
Have any of you at this IMF ever pondered, that if all you ever get is complaints, contempt and rebellion from such different people, ... that is not because they are all by some coincidence born rebellious... it's because that's the only way any person with a last shred of honor and self-respect can possibly react?
So the Amazon warrior disappears in a puff of smoke ... and what's revealed instead is a heartless profiteer without principles, who obeys every whim and arbitrary rule imposed on an innocent woman by these wicked men, just for her part of the pay-out! I say, I'm sorely disappointed!
At least someone understands!!!!
Orders?
If I resist, I'm screwed and nailed, in that order.
If I comply, I'm nailed nevertheless...
...and probably screwed while the nails go in... they'd love that wouldn't they, one of them pounding the spikes through my wrists while the other is furiously raping me... feeling me bucking wildly underneath him...
But really... that inspection...
they've taken the irons off... my hands are free ... my legs too...
this despicable creature has her hand at my throat but not applying force, no firm grip, she's not closing my windpipe.
She's so busy gloating, reveling in her threats.
Standing so close.
So very sure that her uniform and the 'authority' of the IMF protects her.
Of course I can't escape this compound alive but I'm marked for death anyway.
If I do something it will be now ...