Amica 31
The days of this wonderful summer pass by, but now I'm restless, for some days now I’ve sensed something, but I cannot define it, just a strange feeling ...
Then suddenly there’s a noise, seeming to come from below, a violent tremor. I freeze, petrified, a slavegirl seizes my hand and drags me away, out of the house and into the square. Everyone comes running out.
It’s an earthquake, she explains, perhaps the gods are angry. I’d never heard anything like it in my land, like a huge animal stirring in the depths of the mountain. There’s only a little damage, some tiles have fallen off the edge of the roof, but my heart was pounding, seeming to rise in my throat, and now I’m thinking back to the moments before I realized what was happening, when the walls of the house seemed to be coming towards me, the pillars swaying, and the tremor invaded my body from my feet up my legs, shaking my bowels, which echoing in my chest , a horrible feeling!
I hug Eulalia, as if we’re survivors from a shipwreck in a tempest. We stand looking around as if we’re lost, trying to light on some sign to guide us to this turmoil came from, then we sit down on some rocks near the trees that surround the square, waiting I know not what, perhaps something that will appease the wrath of the gods, no one dares go back into the house.
Then there are a few more tremors, sudden alarm seizes each of us, but they are progressively lighter tremors, increasingly spaced in time, and calm returns, all of us dare to return. There’s been no damage, only a small statue placed in the lararium fell where it was, a Priapus with his exaggerated penis. I go into the garden to pluck a white rose to put in a small jar, I'll take it into the lararium to ask the Lares to protect the house.
'Ahhh!'
The pot falls out of my hand to the ground and breaks, the water spills. As if I’m seeing a ghost, I suddenly find myself in front of a man, with long, disheveled hair, an unkempt beard, a red cape, a wolf skin on his shoulders, armed and armoured. It’s him! It’s Fannius! He’s back!
I fall on my knees at his feet, trying to wipe the spilt water with my tunic. As I gather up some fragments of the amphora, he takes me by the arm, lifts me up, cuddles me. I’m still astounded, my mouth’s slightly open as if to say something , he kisses me, an indescribable feeling - my heart leaps into my throat, it’s like the earthquake! I’m breathless but unable to pull myself away, indeed, the very last thing I want is to take my lips from his. His tongue is exploring my mouth, our tongues meet, almost intertwine, a violent shiver runs through my body, the rings and nipples of my breasts swell up, a sudden tension takes hold of my pubic area, of my vulva.
'Come along!'
He drags me away, grasping my hand, to the door that I’d left open, lifts me up to sit sideways on his horse, then leaps up behind me on its ump, and off we go! I’ve been kidnapped, I can’t tell Eulalia, she’ll surely be looking for me, but now I'm his, I'm his prey. We ride to the west, without descending, keeping around the side of Vesuvius. Next we pass through a forest, I can’t say for how long. He’s still cuddling me, caressing my body and thighs, continuing to kiss me, I’m held strongly in his arms with muscles of iron.
We reach the piazza in front of a beautiful villa, with a colonnade at its entrance, and columns to the right along the outer wall, which forms as a wing beside the square. As he lets me slip down to the ground, my tunic rides up revealing my body, I giggle, he mischievously holds up the hem to prevent me covering myself, I’m so madly in love now I don’t care about the two slaves who approach to take the reins of the horse.
Fannius dismounts and lifts me with his left arm under my armpits and the other under my thighs. As we enter the house, two slaves rush to greet him, but they’re almost not worthy of a glance, there's only me for him and him for me.
We pass through the atrium, turn right along a short stretch of the peristyle, and enter in the balnea. I strip off, I'm naked for him. I try to help him take off his wrist-guards, but my hands are shaking. With rapid moves he takes off his cloak and armour. I kneel down to untie his shoes, I figure out how to undo them.
Now we’re in the warm water of the bath, a slave brings us sponges, soap, and towels, we laugh as we play with the sponges, and with the cup with which I rinse his head to wash his hair that’s dusty from the long journey. I caress his muscular body and rub it with the soapy sponge, he surrenders to the pleasure of my care, looks me in the eyes and smiles, pulls me towards him, kisses me on the mouth, shakes my breast, caresses my pubis – and I now dare to touch it, I take between my hands his erect penis, he looks at me mischievously and kisses me again, I wrap my legs around his hips, offering him my precious shrine.
But he gets out of the bath and helps me to get out. Naked, still wet, we run into his apartment, a large bedroom with a big wooden bed. He pushes me backwards onto the blankets and kisses me, I turn, he kisses me on my breast, bites me, my hands, feet, neck, throat, stomach, pubis, vulva, I abandon myself to his game, he’s the wolf that’s devouring the flesh of his tender prey, his hands are like claws. Now, kneeling, I offer myself as a she-wolf, opening my thighs, his penis pushes, I moan, a moment of fear, a prayer,
'Lente impelle!' (‘thrust gently!’)
It’s more desire, it’s more pleasure than slight pain. His dagger sinks into my flesh, my hands grip the blanket, he's squeezing my breasts. I arch my back, throw my head back, turning it, searching for his mouth. He bites my lips, seeks out my tongue, bites it! A hoarse moan, a prolonged groan, then a whirlwind, my body trembles, a divine feeling, my mind is overwhelmed with pleasure.
And then again, and again, we roll like snakes entwined on the bed, like animals we writhe, licking and chomping. And the night is as the day, the day as the night, we have no more any sense of time, it’s an eternal present, a pleasure unabated and without limit, with only brief truces when a slave brings some food, fresh water and sweet wine, - and we go on playing while we’re eating. I see the fresh fruit, grapes that are fully ripe, with my teeth I tear the berries from the bunch and then we share them from mouth to mouth, and contend for bites of meat, ripping it from each others’ mouths like wolves, wild beasts, sex-savages, invincible!