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Crucifixion And You: How Did The Idea Start?

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Lots of fascinating accounts here. I don't remember seeing this thread before. Brain failure is possible, but hopefully I'm not repeating myself.

My kinky origin is straightforward—childhood tie-up fantasies and religious influence. The most definitive moment I recall is when I was in a store with my parents. As we were leaving, there was a girl up front getting arrested. She wore sandals, cutoff jean shorts, and a red tank top, and her hands were cuffed behind her back. I never got over it, and that encounter informs my fantasies to this day.

Over time the religious elements of my life saw bondage interests merge with crucifixion and whipping. We had a giant Bible at home, featuring a painting I'm sure many here have seen. It was inspirational ... though perhaps not in the intended manner. At church there was a large cross hanging above the choir loft, and imagining various church girls being punished on it was a regular thing for years.

I don't know where my slavery or hanging kinks came from, but I can only assume it's all an evolution of the handcuffed girl and the crucified man-god.
 
Servus Venandi said:
My kinky origin is straightforward—childhood tie-up fantasies and religious influence. The most definitive moment I recall is when I was in a store with my parents. As we were leaving, there was a girl up front getting arrested. She wore sandals, cutoff jean shorts, and a red tank top, and her hands were cuffed behind her back. I never got over it, and that encounter informs my fantasies to this day.
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I wonder what she'd think if she knew she was part of such a life-changing moment?
 
Damian said:
To put things in perspective, I really think people that are honest and courageous admit these kinds of fantasies, people that are repressed and fearful don’t!
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I think that’s rather true. I think the majority of people aren’t very much in touch with their sexuality at all. Which is one reason I take some pride in sharing mine. To thine own self be true.
 
KageKamen said:
Admit to who - themselves? Anonymous Internet peers? Or the world?
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Certainly at least to themselves. To at least know what drives oneself.

People are allowed to have privacy, and at least in the current world we live in we May need (or feel the need) to keep such elements private. As free humans we retain that right.

I do think it’s good to share with ones intimate partner/s, yet in my case I still have certain elements withheld.

it is cathartic to share in a safe zone like this, with my veneer of anonymity

As for the world? None of it’s business imho. Sure if we were in some accepting utopia without kink shame, judgemental assumptions and stereotypes it would be nice if I could feel more open about sharing. It’s not.

I truly think if vanilla people heard my full set of kink fantasy, they’d shun me. Almost certain to lose my job as well.

I do have a desire to speak of it, mainly my wife and you all here, who seem to accept kinksters like me without prejudice. For which I thank all of you.

LCs
 
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KageKamen said:
Admit to who - themselves? Anonymous Internet peers? Or the world?
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Starting with themselves first of course, after that it depends on the likeminded people one meets like on here, I don't have a problem sharing the fact that I do images like the ones I do for income now with some close friends and family for example, in fact I boast about it :) doing them for fun only has it's limits and I see no reason why I should inform the rest of the world of my kink. I don't really care what most people think about this issue when they can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality.
 
For me, it also started in adolescence with a strong Christian impact, as I was an altar server. I didn‘t dare to fantasize about being Jesus himself, but being the villain crucified on the left of him - it was more arousing for me to be crucified ‚justified‘, not being innocent, paying my price for my crimes…

More and more, total nudity became important (I was happy watching the movie „The Last Temptation Of Christ“ with even a nude Jesus crucified) - and then the fantasy about nude women crucified emerged…
 
The idea grew slowly in me.
When I was 14, I visited a town in the south of France with our girls' group. There, the people had depicted the Stations of the Cross differently than I had ever seen them. I only knew the mendacious Catholic depictions from Germany.
With the emergence of my sexuality I had to realise that pain excites me, and if it is delivered well, a few of them are already delightful for me.
This led to the combination of pain and the cross.
When I started to look into the subject and did more research, I realised that what really happened at that time did not have much to do with what I wanted to experience.
Today I enjoy being tied to the Andreas Cross by my girlfriend and having my breast buds pampered with electrostimulation.
Then I experience what I am looking for pleasure pain.
 
My fascination in crucifixion started when I was ten. I was reading stories, seeing images, and watching scenes from films on crucifixion (most of this stuff was related to the death of Jesus) around that time and I began to develop interest. Over years that followed I continued seeing so many different depictions of crucifixion (both of Jesus and a few new ones) over many forms of media and my interests grew further. Years later, I joined this site and started seeing and reading many more stories, videos, and images that it featured and learning much more on crucifixion; my interest expanded to major extent. Now a days I continue seeing the fascinating contents of the forum and converse with others here who share the same interest as me.
 
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